Do. It. Now.

It only seems fitting for me to start things off with a quote... "Do not wait; the time will never be "just right'. Start where you stand, and work with whatever tools you may have at your command, and better tools will be found as you go along." - Napoleon Hill

I think this blog is necessary. I know it won't be perfect, and I also know that perfection doesn't exist despite what an eating disorder will try to convince you so long as you'll listen...PERFECTIONISM CLIP

I also realize that I have a lot to share, be it experiences that I've had, books that I've read, websites I've found, or people I've met who have helped me along.

I can't claim to know it all, but I know that I've come a long way and am sad to see other people struggling and thinking they're in it alone. Truth be told, when I was at my lowest of lows, I probably looked healthy. That's the sad thing -- an eating disorder brings a lot of shame and if you're really engaged with it, chances are you're hiding it so well that people think you're fine. You can be underweight, normal weight, or overweight and still have it rough. I've struggled while I was 'too thin' but that doesn't change the fact that I was just as sick when I was x number of pounds heavier and seemingly healthy.

I'm not entirely sure where this blog is headed, but I know I need to do something. Eating disorders suck. That's all there is to it. I'm getting better, and so should anyone else who struggles, even if it's only once in a while. Regardless of whether you've got a full blown eating disorder or you struggle or you know someone who's working through stuff now, talking about it makes it real. While making it real is scary and it means it's time to own up to the issue, this is the only way we're going to make progress...

There's tons of resources out there for people to use. If I can help people find them, great. If my blog is one in a whole bunch of similar ones, so what...maybe I can get to someone that those other blogs can't. For someone who struggled for so long with trying to be perfect and trying to never make a mistake, being willing to put this out there without making it the. best. blog. ever. is just a testament to the fact that you can move on from your old ways. My eating disorder (who I refer to as Ed, as cheesy as some people may find that) doesn't like this. It also doesn't like that I ate 3 meals and 2 snacks today or that I put cream in my coffee or that I didn't run on my injured foot today. But I like that, and I did it. So there.

Feel free to send me questions. Comments. Suggestions. Stuff you want to get out there.